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by illmac

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1.
Aaliyah: “Now… where do I start?” HOOK: Riding for the squad we aint trynna be jealous Give me my flowers while i can still smell em Tell em I prefer money trees over yall feelings Picking dollar bills while they falling from the ceiling Like naa naa na na naaa Everything within reach I want my piece Like naa naa na na naa My bad u was waitin on me, okay- VERSE: Oh u Waiting on me? Tell em keep waitin, Ain’t nobody in my league but I keep playin Shit, Im just trynna ball like its SPRNG trainin Block ya shot like the calls that I keep fading Fuck a Bad vibe I aint taking that lightly Its a sign, Every time u call it say SCAM likely Its a sign, knew from jump, even my phone was like “ehh i cant really cosign bruh but u can answer if u want” whoa- Never graduated but I kept it player- I still walk across a stage to get the paper At the staple center watching blazers vs the lakers They mad they city only known for reggie, yall sm pacers We some blazers, do it major, -they said money dont grow on trees- but i seen 100 acres pick ya flavor Grind the beans get the pot, brew the coffee sip it hot, they been sleepin on me now that shit can stop (shit can stop), we ridin HOOK: Riding for the squad we aint trynna be jealous Give me my flowers while i can still smell em Tell em I prefer money trees over yall feelings Picking dollar bills while they falling from the ceiling Like naa naa na na naaa Everything within reach I want my piece Like naa naa na na naa My bad u was waitin on me, okay- Verse 2 Talkin Beef w lil bro, but if u ever need a thing then u can hit me on my phone Talk abt the same shit cause its weighin on my soul Naaanananaaaaw Yea, I’m Ready for the glow up Fuck a blow up, aint these rap lames Poppin champagne, no- Grew up Po’- yea, no wonder its my last name I remember being clowned for that, but u wasnt around for that, now I owned it yeah i like the sound of that Yeah yeah yeah, i use to freestyle w Oryanna She would throw me words, ooh u remember that Remember back we lived w Grandma K, uncle danny still the older brother that i never had yea remember that I DO I DO Still the coldest but u wouldnt notice aint had a cut in months, Feelin focused lookin homeless Grew up Listenin to Otis now I pen an opus This Middle finger for the police, this one for the POTUS im HOOK: Riding for the squad we aint trynna be jealous Give me my flowers while i can still smell em Tell em I prefer money trees over yall feelings Picking dollar bills while they falling from the ceiling Like naa naa na na naaa Everything within reach I want my piece Like naa naa na na naa My bad u was waitin on me, okay-
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Ghostedem 04:55
HOOK: If they ain’t loyal I don’t post with em They was see through so I ghosted em Names on bullets while I’m loading em Told em dead it then I ghosted em I had to come up missing, to make my presence known (so i ghosted em) I had to count my blessings, they don’t add up I get ghost (then I ghosted em) VERSE 1: We getting money like 2006 Use to get 250 for an ounce of mids Never let a bitch get in my head like John Malkovich This my foretay, skip the foreplay like ya album skits Full metal alchemist, nosediving mounting cliffs Surgical with it, feel like Alonzo pulling out the bitch Knock you out ya shit, blowing down ya house of bricks Lounging in my fortress lit, order hits like the Saudi Prince Had to break the mold, sheeps clothes, masquerading wolf Calibrate the scale, take a half and make it whole Channel HBO Game of Thrones- From dragon flames I rose, walk out my palace draped in gold like a pharoah My heart is black and made of coal Ancient Rome, Gladiator dome, Pop molly, get lockjaw- alligator roll Gladly take your soul, aint doing no favors, I do this for paper Check the polygraph, I’m true to my nature, I do this- Dont lie to you then try to justify to others Judge threw the book at me, people judge me by the cover Trynna self improve, selfish dude Eat the pussy left a yelp review, Life a chess game- I take the L and move She pushing buttons like the ‘Rari will start I’m getting ghost in the whipe like Mario Cart Blood in the water with sharks, tearing bodies apart Blew candles out and fought in the dark like Arya Stark, Names on a list If they ain’t loyal I don’t post with em They was see through so I ghosted em Names on bullets while I’m loading em Told em dead it then I ghosted em I had to come up missing, to make my presence known (so i ghosted em) I had to count my blessings, they don’t add up I get ghost (then I ghosted em) *outro / beat switch* I remember reduced lunches, skippin consecutive meals Now we do luncheons w execs n still stress on the bill Somewhere between on the verge, and on the edge in my feels Thoughts in my head trynna tell my Pessimism to chill If I go, mention me amongst Legends for real North on my back, got a Lifelong Membership in the ville Watched sm switch up depending on whos presence they feel Nothing faker than trynna fit somebody’s definition of real, man I Forget what the choice was Smn about choosing to Feel or avoid love Young Thousandaire rocking Billionaire Boys Club Like oh i see u just Filling that void huh I already know- Those I Ghosted, I apologize Just needed to cleanse my energy of them toxic vibes now it’s new phone who’s this? If only i knew then what I know now, was clueless but deep down i always knew this New me- Old soul (sole), the Shoe fits Everybodys an icon, What we do for a few clicks Old soul the Shoe fits But the truth is, Sometimes I feel out of place, like I’m not really from here Like I inherited these memories and this identity and I’m waiting to go back somewhere Like I’ll wake up from this dream and think, “Oh yeah, I AM me, that dream was weird” Just play along, staying calm, ignore the voices in my head unless im making songs & that's the way we bond Probably hard to be w me period, Feelings only show once in a while to keep up appearances- damn...
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YODA 04:20
Trynna get healthy tighten my circle Aint no try only do Gettin that bag, wakin up early Aint no try only do Stick to the plan no excuses Aint no try- only do, aint no try- only do Aint no try... VERSE ...Be more honest Fucked around put a wall up Clear my conscience, been in private I was hidin shits been piling up In need of guidance, god im stuck, bottoms up Put the bottle down but I still got sm shit that's bottled up, thats obvious Everybody watching everybody We aint all got the same problems everybody feel alone cause everybody watching everybody else actin like they aint got em I got problems too I been out the loop Actin calm & cool I cant sleep, in case my dreams turn to nightmare too Lost a few friends, ends, Lot of my loved ones been abused, shared sm fucked up truths Changed my views, This pains for u lot of women that survived abuse, what they been thru, changed my views this ones for u… u Thought wed be good by now But ima still hold u down Checkin that Bank account Hoping that check don't bounce Thought wed be good by now... But ima still hold u down... Thats right HOOK Love myself put in more effort, aint no try, only do Try to read more try to talk less- aint no try, only do Less complaining trynna be grateful - aint no try, only do Aint no try only do aint no try only do Aint no try... Cant nobody see me when I’m motivated Know u done fucked up now right Cant nobody see me when I'm motivated Ooooh know u done fucked up now right⬇ VERSE I been, chasing my purpose and that shits eluding me, wait - maybe, im just confused Maybe its chasing its been pursuin me maybe im losing it Hidin frm scrutiny Cover my wounds up w all of this jewlery Ink on my skin just to cover my nudity Wait- u feel out of place? U speaking my language - it talk to me Fluently It’s no rules to this shit Just Be you & thats it Aint Too cool to admit that- I listen to old shit & cringe, Uncomfortable in my skin Less abt things that i said More abt places I’ve been Less abt things that I did More abt Tears that were shed Less abt feeling so cold More abt leavin my head We were Made to feel, but that's not how we’re made to feel, Being strong means giving yourself a space to heal, real BRIDGE: Thought wed be good by now But ima still hold u down Checkin that Bank account Hoping that check don't bounce Thought we'd be good by now... But ima still hold u down HOOK: Drinkmore water check my ego - Aint no try, only do Tryin to listen trust in my vision - Aint no try, only do Guard ya magic dont let em snatch it - Aint no try, only do Breakin habits thats automatic - Aint no try, only do Forgive yourself nobodys perfect - Aint no try, only do Forgive yourself nobodys perfect - Aint no try, only do Forgive yourself nobodys perfect - Aint no try, only do Aint no try, only do- Aint no try only do- Aint no try, only do Cant nobody see me when im motivated Know u done fucked up now right? Cant nobody see me when im motivated Ooooh know u done fucked up now right? know u done fucked up now right? ... know u done fucked up now Cant nobody see when im motivated- Motivation...
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B.Dot: You niggas aint fucking w the squad though Put that on my mom bro When it come to writing rhymes every lines intertwined and designed w the God flow Don’t get hit w a bomb though I couldn’t miss a shot w my eyes closed I’m good w the point like Rondo or get hit w a Two Piece- that’s a combo Nigga, all my homies from the bottom, guns and drugs they really got em See the opps and they spot em, best believe they probably shot em Oh my god this is a problem Oh my lord this is an issue Hand my grandmama some tissue She said “no weapon that is formed against you” I said “Grandmama Jesus allowed the hood to have pistols” (true story) So I’m switching up the flow ‘cause I can To let u niggas know I’m the man U don’t understand what the cocaine epidemic did to my fam When u take the lid off a can After you done heated it & beated it & mistreated it & Best believe anything that u see in it to degrees will be damned Damaged goods- so understand the hood next time u try to critique who I am I’m tap dancing on the beat so anything that I think Ima make sure it bleeds through the pen Get a scope, come see through my lens I’m yelling out Free all my friends And making sure they never go again I’ma speak the truth to the end And fuck whoever that we gon offend LSC- HOOK- Real make moves while the fake watch No snapchat when they face swap hit the plug up, make em weight watch Gettin to the bag- that's a Cakewalk Got a crib in the valley where it stays hot, trust me Been a few months since a rain drop touched me Real make moves while the fake watch Gettin to the bag that's a, that’s a cake walk Illmac: Its Fuck 12 i got the case dropped My homie PC Did 2 1/2 yrs state prop Just for selling trees, now dispensaries on the same block, damn Shit dont stop like the drug war, Every other block got a drug store, aint a uproar, the walkin dead, the whole city a slum, while they runnin they mouth i got a business to run Now they Twiddlin thumbs, fixin their tongue to put a limit how big wed become like its a million to one Told Em “Bitch, I’m the one”, they said “Over My Dead body!” -consider it done, Killa, been on the run n rep the city im from this is capital punishment that isnt a pun Heart frigid im numb, only rubber I use is the grip on the gun cause it kick like a drum Spendin Militant funds- civilians w guns, im the vigilant one vigilante w a pistol being civil to none Throw shade I extinguish the sun im as lit as they come Got em like oooh weee, oooh shit, Hoppin out 2 seats, new tints They be like whos he? New drip I be like New Me, who’s thiis? What we talkin? HOOK- Real make moves while the fake watch No snapchat when they face swap hit the plug up, make em weight watch Gettin to the bag- that's a Cakewalk Got a crib in the valley where it stays hot, trust me Been a few months since a rain drop touched me Real make moves while the fake watch Gettin to the bag that's a, that’s a cake walk
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Hook: Had to crawl before I walk then- ran right away from you Had to fly before I crash land, n crawled right back to you Got me saying ooooh, ay yea Same shit different day Got em saying oooh, ay yea Guess it is what it is til it aint Baby Franco: I promise Everyday after tomorrow gon’ be better Days go by like nights Im high enough to forget her I Can’t run forever like Forest (Gump) Feels like every song about you until the chorus everyday the same amount of pain, hope u ain’t noticed Is it supposed to leave? I ain’t know it I see u in my dreams, where u going? In everything I think when I wake up in the morning My heart- Illmac: It never skips a beat, It’s been resting on my sleeve How they never see me coming like I never seen em leave When the shows done and the lights dim And the song ends and the love fades what we got then? Was it all worth it? Hook: Had to crawl before I walk then- ran right away from you Had to fly before I crash land, n crawled right back to you Got me saying ooooh, ay yea Same shit different day Got em saying oooh, ay yea Guess it is what it is til it aint Illmac: Yo you in this then I’m in it too We can go the distance I know I been distant too I know sometimes you think I’m dissing you and take my lyrics literal But it writes itself, I’m just in the room No lie, sometimes these words take on a life of their own and predict the future, I wouldve listened If I would’ve known Sometimes I consider your feelings in spite of my own Or resent your feelings when i can’t decipher my own I know, sometimes when I write I get a glimpse of my inner light I mostly end up feeling like I been writing the same song a million times and still can’t get it right But fuck this the life Blame it on the lifestyle, I’m raising some eyebrows And raising my price now, parents raised me right Like it’s polite how I opened up doors for em, I’m nice now It’s cool they never loved me, I never liked to be tied down In deep, I might drown Picture the GOAT counting Sheep before I lie down Sleep on me it’s lights out When the shows done and the lights dim and the song ends And the love fades, what we got then, huh? Hook: Had to crawl before I walk then- ran right away from you Had to fly before I crash land, n crawled right back to you Got me saying ooooh, ay yea Same shit different day Got em saying oooh, ay yea Guess it is what it is til it aint oooh, ay yea oooh, ay yea
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Sample / quote: “This is like my little window to the world, and every minute’s a different show… The idea is to remain in a constant state of departure, while always arriving. Saves on introductions and goodbyes. The ride does not require an explanation, just occupants… that’s where you guys come in…” VERSE: This LA Spring feel like Portland summers The heavens that we orbit under look like watercolors So excuse me while I paint the sky Waste time spendin magic hours watching paint dry Drinkin in these blue moons and Sangria sunsets Drip like What it takes to be a Champion; blood, sweat And tears my peers shed when they asked me whos up next- Hand me an ambien this shit had me in unrest Caused my family enough stress, loved ones pay the price Kidnap Jeff Bezos make the ransom a couple grains of rice Tally the masses- counting sheep before I say goodnight, Insomniac lucid dreaming watching Waking Life... ...Not many dreamers left, so busy sleep walking thru life or wake walking thru dreams Aint recognize the man in the mirror, I Think we’ve met, Or thats nostalgia the beat projects Remember Young me watching family matters on CBS Used to think I was more Stephan than Steven-esque I Still chase Laura around- just imagine that she's success N Share Fleeting moments of happiness sandwiched between regrets Why everything gotta be so deep? Why I cant just get on here n talk shit? Why I always forget details? Why im so focused on the Whole theme? Why I always Fall in love? Why can't it be no strings? Excuse my selfishness, faith’s belief without evidence And actions the line between knowledge and intelligence Like when I read 48 laws of power and aspired to be everything I rebel against, Peep the relevance... Most People are People-people, I only talk ideas But most are followers, watch who u call ur leaders Prolly die by my Entourage of Dorados like Poncho Villa on a march of freedom Singing “Dont cry for me Argentina” Like Martin’s speech, This a call to dreamers Before I Recant n call it naive, before my blood spilled in the street like Aquafina Put a lot of myself in my art like Frida, We all wake up and play our part in this cosmic theater That or we Mindlessly driftin... She only smokes cigs when the anxiety’s cripplin We both misfits in Societys vision Some dying to fit in, other TRY to be different Cant tell if I'm neither or both... ....Cant tell if im neither or both They said U reap what u sow, i just plant seeds and see it as growth... spring
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Dim my Light 03:23
I let my thoughts roam, they been gone so long, that's why I aint dropped, they just got home Its been 4yrs, im locked into my zone Took it on the jawbone and got stronger now i flaunt every flaw shown Nothing handed to me I don’t plan to lose Lifes a biiitch (beach)- I got sandy shoes Going ham til I pull a hammy U gotta hand it to me, middle finger and a hand on my family jewels Cant handle my attitude I swam in a half a gallon of Goose off a handle loose Know what them Xannys do call em Xanadu’s I’m w the SMOKE- Im packin a pack of Kools 10 milligram addies had me Spazzin back when I sang the blues Act a fool w my clique of Animals Hoppin outta pocket like sm Kangaroos No lackin- U know where I’m at- check the latitude Point the trigger finger at me there’s at least 3 pointing back at you Anywho- The vegan Nani sweet as apple juice n passion fruit jump in the box n then I crash like bandicoot She a savage like Fenti, La Femme Nikita, hold the heater Dont fuck w Mona Lisa but she my Rosalia Bridge: I cant lie to myself, saying I aint the one, aint the one No I, I cant lie to myself, No, let me shine… Hook: Leave me alone to live my life It’s in my soul won’t dim my light For you (I don’t live my life for you- so I won’t dim my light for you) And I don’t, live my life, for you (Live my life for you, so I won’t dim my light for you) VERSE 2: Gotta hustle through the pain, hit the kill switch Lot of trouble on my brain gotta deal with Pulling luggage off a plane, off a guilt trip Couple hundred to my name now i feel rich (real shit) We only here a brief moment in time Which reminds me- keep going n grind Keep control of my vibe n each moment is mine Might've blew a shot or two- I’mm reloaded, its fine I aint trippin off that, naw I been Livin off rap but i was gettin off packs, so I aint finna fall back We don’t Consider yall feelings, we consider yall wack If I put a Hole-in-one of y’all itd get a golf clap Homie told me move to LA, don’t let that shit change you but watching old friends stay the same’s a bit painful Shows I’m growing right? humble like apologizing after the fight even though u know u right - lips red- exhaled them lips read ”sex sells” Guess I’m in ‘Good company’ I invest well I do this Comfortably now n find it funny how all those who could never fuck w me, fuck w me now That hates a seed they stuck in the ground, they tended to it enough it grew into Love for me now / But who’s got love me? Whos frontin? who fucks w me- how? Who's runnin? Who’s tied to ankles- tugging me down? cause Bridge: I cant lie to myself, saying I aint the one, aint the one No I, I cant lie to myself, No, let me shine… Hook: Leave me alone to live my life It’s in my soul won’t dim my light For you (I don’t live my life for you- so I won’t dim my light for you) And I don’t, live my life, for you (Live my life for you, so I won’t dim my light for you) … outro: Aaliyah Russell: “I’m in my own personal bubble”
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(Illmac) I just want em to feel it, yeah- It’s good to be alive right now Shit, I could’ve died by now Last few months felt weak Watched months pass like weeks Watched weeks pass like days Watched days pass like blinks Lost fam rest in piece No deadweight, no weak links HOOK: You don’t really need me Do it all by yourself You don’t need me, you good But I still wish you well You don’t really need me Do it all by yourself You don’t need me, you good But I still wish you well Guess we falling out… (oooh oooh oooooh oooh) I guess we falling out... (oooh oooh oooooh oooh) I know, I wish you well (I do, I do) I know, I wish you well (I do, I do) (oooh oooh oooooh oooh) VERSE 1 (Illmac): Don't catch me if im falling No half ass love when I'm all in Never switched up im evolvin, yea Whats the Problem? yea I cant fuck w em if I dont know em Naw, I only trust em far as I can throw em Love to be alone I see it as an omen Let em go, don't look at people like I own em And that goes for homies n that goes for hoes and I just killed the pussy and gave no Condolence I let her throw it back til she get scoliosis And even Virgin Mary would get Holy ghosted Keep em at a distance when they hold me closest She gave the silent treatment- No one noticed Married to the game, no annulments Yea, no emotions, just control my focus cause You don’t really need me Do it all by yourself You don’t need me, you good But I still wish you well You don’t really need me Do it all by yourself You don’t need me, you good But I still wish you well Guess we falling out… (oooh oooh oooooh oooh) I guess we falling out... (oooh oooh oooooh oooh) I know, I wish you well (I do, I do) I know, I wish you well (I do, I do) (oooh oooh oooooh oooh) VERSE 2 (Adam Flowers): I know I wish you well, I don’t do distance, well I just don’t know if I’m finna bail I just got throwed and poured both in the ginger ale I remember you smoking with coke in your pinky nail I don’t know if you don’t notice I know that you been to jail, maybe you just don’t do business well I know your pretty frail, posted at chippendales I know you say you don’t know me but I see the soul of an infidel I know you know that I did you well You know I wish you well, you know I wish you You don’t really need me Do it all by yourself You don’t need me, you good But I still wish you well You don’t really need me Do it all by yourself You don’t need me, you good But I still wish you well Guess we falling out… (oooh oooh oooooh oooh) I guess we falling out... (oooh oooh oooooh oooh) I know, I wish you well (I do, I do) I know, I wish you well (I do, I do) (oooh oooh oooooh oooh) -Beat slows down / chopped and screwed- It’s good to be alive right now Shit, I could’ve died by now Last few months felt weak Watched months pass like weeks Watched weeks pass like days Watched days pass like blinks Lost fam rest in piece No deadweight, no weak links
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VERSE 1: Young man brushed the dirt off his shoulders, The world in front of em, Use to be down bad- To New beginnings, Who’s split personalities at tug of war til they wore each other out And nothing ever gets truly finished Ooh thats too familiar, soon you’ll get the picture, just trynna choose a filter Just trynna loosen them screws, we know they wound tight Read the headline - check- make a judgement - check- click the sound bite, That sounds about right most days he stay at home in the house like he's afraid of the outside, Like hes safe on that lil island, building a life boat But if he planned on leaving he’d tie a rope to them high hopes N fly away... by the way, Trynna find his hiding place, you gotta Cross his mind- whos got the right of way? -like watercolors across my window all i see is motion blur 3 Young woman brushed the dirt off her shoulders, the world in front of her Scarred from all the trauma she had withstood Stronger than she realizes she is, she's powerful but stares in a funhouse mirror and sees damaged goods Survivor of sexual trauma, tries not to let it define her but the pressure reminds her That it’s a mans world..... “Its what she wore- deep down she really liked the attention” Don’t click the comments, Its a mad world Gotta take it in small doses, Bob wiley- keep babysteppin, it's all motion Some days she feel like Dogwoods in the spring, some days- Fall Roses Its all growth and I just soak it in like osmosis... Closed her eyes n woke up yrs later... how could we not notice- Like Watercolors across my windows all i see is motion blur Young father brushed the dirt off shoulders the world in front of em currently down bad- To new beginnings He sleeps in a tent down the street from the house that he grew up in Choosing this over mom’s rules that’s too restricting Ironic independence seemed to bring a new dependence On a substance, tho it's a comfort zone, not a new position He’s use to it, his work booted em, when his work boots were the first shoes that fits em Now he's Disillusioned with it A different person when he was workin Held his head higher, looked u in the eye, felt he had a purpose He lets his anger out... vents his pain on paper and leaves it layin round Things he'd never say out loud I think he secretly hopes that they get found Like if they do, maybe he will, til then he Anchors down Dont hold ya breath, it’s escape or drown Trynna find balance on Shaky ground Feels like he's breakin, maybe he needs a break from this vacant town It's got a stranglehold on em, like the ppl he chooses to hang around But hes loyal and they always stay around Doing the same things, maybe that's why nobody makes it out I know his story isn't done being written I’m just flippin thru pages, tears blurry my vision like Like Watercolors across my windows all i see is motion blur Its easy to autpilot through life blinded by the motion blur. We naturally fill in the blanks, categorize & think we know others' story based off the headlines... It's easy to judge a puzzle by the piece or two in front of us, when all we know is fragments...Cause all we show is fragments. I wouldve done this, I'd never do that... if I were in THAT position... It’s harder to empathize & not look at others as flawed versions of ourselves. When confronted with loved ones hidden truths, we’re surprised or hurt we weren’t given an all access pass to them… When we may not have created a safe space for them to be able to be that vulnerable in the first place... LITTLE WARRIOR: First impressions can be quite different I don’t always get it right I’m judging others with specs But I’ve got a plank in my own eye Painted by the same hand Trying to get by on this earth Like water colords across my windows All I see is motion blur All we know is fragments… ‘cause all we show is fragments Like water colors across my windows, all I see it motion blur Guess the only moral of the story, is try not to judge cause there’s more to every story *Outro / Beat switch* I been getting high And I can’t feel my lows Head up in the sky That’s where I’ma go I’ma paint my life in gold Dip my flesh and bones Need to cleanse my soul Maybe I will… (then again) maybe I won’t (then again) Maybe I will… maybe I won’t This aint what you wanted, this is what is wrote God’s word coming from the GOAT Jim Jones running with the Kult Spike the punch, cut the coke Fuck the world, tip the globe on it’s axis Feel the stroke Yeah bitch, feel the stroke Turn em into fiends, got the fix, now I’ll never be broke Let’s go They say I’m the one That’s not enough for me I need everything, Pay me like you owe me something Pay me like you owe me something Pay me like you owe me something Need to paint my life in gold Dip my flesh and bones Need to cleanse my soul Maybe I will… maybe I won’t Something something, naw Yada yada yah, need to finish this song Maybe I will… maybe I won’t-
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Be Better 04:19
Tired of watching my heroes fall… Don’t be like me… Be Better I’m sick of watching all my heroes fall Mirror on the wall saying - Do Better I got a message from a fan he told me he going through it Lost his love and a loved one and said my music pulled em through it Told me lines from songs he loved, what they meant to him, he still in school, raps n wanna be like me... Whatever You do... -DON’T BE LIKE ME- Which is to say dont put me on pedestal im watching heroes falling that I thought Id never Measure to Another fan told me that he finally got his GED I never did- we switched roles in turn he inspired me to -DO BETTER- Fashion Bummy, Had me Actin funny- half the countries in my passport stamped for rappin for fans that love me, but I’m Still chasing that high I felt as a teen buying a new washer & dryer for my Dads’ house w battle money Might not mean much to you, but if u only knew Them clean clothes felt like a mansion that had the ocean view If only one outfit was clean, I might not go to school, Wear it monday, skip til friday, wear it n hope no one knew Whoo somethings are too real, I’m in my bed like Dru Hill thinkin u dont speak how u feel then who will? ...Just trynna be better everyday So Its not self deprecating when i say Don’t be like me… Be Better I’m sick of watching all my heroes fall Mirror on the wall saying - Do Better Don’t be like me… You can be better I’m sick of watching all my heroes fall Mirror on the wall saying - “Do Better” I can’t be your hero, I can’t even save myself I can’t be your hero, I can’t even save myself I use to idolize rappers like super heroes, since day one I would put my mask on and play them Pac was like Clark Kent, Biggie was Bruce Wayne We watched beef amongst A-1’s The death of Super Man- I was way young But where I came from Being broke was a super power… I put my cape on Watching my heroes fall… Tired of watching my heroes fall Now all I see’s their power weakening and chinks in their armor Either that or I’m even stronger Shit, I guess I finally became one I guess it’s on me to save em My bad that’s the villain Ego speaking, I can’t escape em As Gotham falls, design a wall just to hide my flaws Suit up like Kung Fu Kenny, T’Challa, Wakanda calls Double R - X the professor to guide em all Falling off, now he back on that kryptonite, It’s not his fault Cause all that pressure busts pipes, addicted by default Marshall locked in Arkham Asylum, outside is Martial Law Donald like Dr. Claw or Thanos w the gauntlet on Kanye dropped the ball cosigning a monster at comic con Watchin my heroes fall… tired of watching my heroes fall Before the rise and fall… Don’t idolize me, not at all, I ain’t shit, signing off P.S. … Don’t be like me… Be Better I’m sick of watching all my heroes fall Mirror on the wall saying - Do Better Don’t be like me… You can be better I’m sick of watching all my heroes fall Mirror on the wall saying - “Do Better” Wish I could put Big L, in the Lazarus pit Jakka’s handstyle in my blackbook brings me back to that trip Cried when Bender died, Alexander Buchanan is missed Wish I could turn this tat on my skin back into him Tired of watching all my heroes fall…. Watching all my heroes fall… Rest in peace to the fallen heroes
11.
Eatin gardettos in velour sweats, more money, more jealous, more stressed Never thought about having more, less More less, In the Background high as Falsetto in a quartet Ugh, Stop drinking but im still turnt Stop smoking cause of asthma but i still blow a smoke screen, lowkey but i been worse Lost sm demons but they still lurk when the motivation ends thats the real work A slave to my habits, i know how the Field Work, I put in work in my field, And then My purpose revealed, Yeah they Aimed for my name but all the Dirt hit my shield, I watched it Ricochet, Waging war til I’m blackballed, I’m Blackhawk Me n my queen riding like Crazy Horse and Black Shawl U either rebelling or assisting the system, ghostdancing long as Peltiers sitting in Prison Lineage split w victims of history - the privileged The Pillers - the pillaged immigrants - indigenous im mixin traditions Sitting Bull’s spirit risen to Visit my visions Big Difference between gettin rich and enrichment Trynna find Upwards on My compass Went to war they sounded live trumpets upon my return triumphant In touch w my roots, Tug at this noose, like it's Comfortable loose Pennin Venom From a Recluse Threw up V for Victory, chuckin a duece N pulled the Colt Peacemaker tucked in my boots Cock the hammer back w my thumb n It shoots Warned em once, he refused this chip on my shoulder blade weighs too much on my glutes... Ignore the bolts Poking from my neck, Paint em gold n stay focused on a check Writing all these goals down Copin w the stress n these ghosts up in my head Roamin free, let em be, they not posin any threat Got Addicted to the praise, feel they owe me the respect, Addicted to the love, like the moment that we met Got addicted to attention then they showed me the connect Watchin celebs overdosin had a sobering effect on me Remember back when we laughed at rules N Ran around like Bebe’s kids acting bad at school Way Before we packed that tool, Now Homies Pouring liquor out trynna see the Glass half full WE just Keep em entertained so the world cant revolt I shot the sheriff w a pearl handled Colt Earl Manigult- THE GOAT, aint a feelin that the verse cant evoke, Just got my word and my Kult This little thing of ours, Boom bada bing, Blue collar dreams Me n my brothers bout our chicken like Gustavo fring Coupe- olive green Sports are the new coliseum Im Chewin licorice root Thumbin thru the I ching, Opportunity knock n my Call of duty might ring A Wandering samurai like the Book of 5 rings “Think deeply of the world and lightly of yourself” Time is money got me out here tightening my belt what I write is what I felt Take the Rifle from the shelf Me n God got a pact, she give me Life- I give em hell i took a blood oath Blood soaked, pops did a seance in the 80s n seen the devil up close, now u sitting front row Liquor n drugs, liquor n drugs Watchin artists droppin like flies is killin my buzz I aint innocent, not in a position to judge Did everything frm Molly Ringwald to hilary duff The way we glorify shit that’s killin us but Boast when we survive it shows shows the resilience in us ] Well...excuse us for not giving a fuck, the industry sucks Labels treating rappers like Dinner for Schmucks An Idiocracy, mediocrity, keep gamblin til they punch my ticket like i hit the lottery Anybody can get it, I aint w inequality But I been evolvin trynna show a different side of me That's why I Treat my catalog like them pigs robbin me Destroy the evidence liike they did my Missing property I grew up listening to rap music My mom loved rock n roll - we both listening to black music Won’t Pretend that it aint Showing respect as a Guest in it, wont threaten my place No Chuck Berry- no Elvis legacy paved A Hound dog like Big Mama Thornton may she rests in her grave You can love chinese food and even have the recipe great still Chinese food end of the day, im sayin I grew up listening to black music The dude w a white russian like Rasputin n Vlad putin Duke Nukem- Im back shootin, the Hands movin like Zab Judah Half goat- like Krampus & half human Just trynna live my truth like the trans movement n stand by my fam like Dwayne wade n Gab Union Prolly catch a lot of hate, dressed fresh to death, made funeral plans n im Fashionably late Every 20 yrs fashion comes back around so Assume im living in the future if my outfit’s out of date This The planet of the apes throwin monkey wrenches, blow em like candles in the wind, cant hold a candle to the great Id catch a case for Chase like I Plan to rob a bank Gotta Watch my back they always sabotage the greats Who to trust... Serpents in the grass could not escape, I made snake skin boots, lie in camouflage n wait Wanna Battle? lock the date A day And a dollar late Swear they Had a lot to say, til its brandished off waist I'm just Weighin options out... like back when them packs had a lot of shake - that’s a catatonic state Allergic to being broke need my Pockets to swell Ride til i say hello from the Otherside like Adele Cold blooded- tears like ice when it melt, A lot of shit on my mind as u can probably tell They victim blame, see a suicide then tweet about mental health Like heres a # to a hotline if it helps Well Harvey Weinstein’s rapist, Cosby as well We can debate who's worse when they both rottin in Hell A lot of yall know somebody that won't confide in u cause you’d shame em for surviving things u couldnt conquer yourselves Tired of biting my tongue, its time we begun, 12yrs old a grown man threatened my Life w a gun, flashback to seein pops sayin hes not gonna run, Can't outrun a bullet - a mantra passed father to son Got Addicted to the praise, feel they owe me the respect, Addicted to the love, like the moment that we met Got addicted to attention then they showed me the connect Watchin celebs overdosin like damn... How id feel about myself if i wasnt about myself I’d climb up out myself n never doubt myself Never doubt yourself or the power of belief A seed that turned into a root that sprouted to a tree I be a weed amongst the flowers, a flower surrounded by weeds My power surrounded by peace My smith n wesson piece full of gun powder underneath me for the 6 or 7 hours i sleep A thousand cowards deceased By a thousand deaths a piece... Alpha wolf howlin at the moon, stomach growlin for relief A pound of flesh on my scale, balanced like the beam The beam on the 40 calibre, Excalibur- im king SPRNG
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Lak Sa 04:11
Watching hours go slow Thinking “How'd I grow old”? With No rain on my roof then my flowers won't grow Been in hibernation, tired of waitin I lie awake and think abt time I’m wasting Am i complacent? Shit, I should’ve knew winter was coming- Im from the North... Thats the quiet before the storm, thats coming forth I watch the world burning from my porch I wouldve try to put it out if i wasnt bored I throw a Dixie cup of water at it then it's back to drugs n sports Drunken snorts, like addiction is a love of sorts I’m more convinced than Uninformed Cut the cord- Ignore the cliff that we Running towards I need money or someone who’ll love me for who i am oh i got that, n need something more No its not that I mean i just wanna put my city and my family on Shit when i started I aint know id last this long HOOK Told myself I do it for my neighborhood I’ma take the North Worldwide Told myself I do it for my city Left and now I’m feeling like a lie I told myself I do it for my family Some people had to cut ties Now I gotta do it for myself But that’s between you and I 2 What to do, watch a movie or play call of duty They got us on lockdown now, Im scared i caught the cooties A homebody already, the world just caught up to me Take a trip to portland to order the Lak Sa at Nudi Stop at Yokos if I wanted sushi Talkin Sashimi, nigiri, no no, no rolls- I’m not a newbie Nobody put me on, when i was young Underdog, yeah thats where im from Im from the Johns My comfort zone is on my own yeah that made me strong My pops n mom couldnt get along (DIVORCE) No love was lost, it all falls when the summers gone, Winter comes, then it thaws guess i was wrong when HOOK Told myself I do it for my neighborhood I’ma take the North Worldwide Told myself I do it for my city Left and now I’m feeling like a lie I told myself I do it for my family Some people had to cut ties Now I gotta do it for myself But that’s between you and I 3 I facetimed my niece n we battled, I kilt her tho My girl like “mm u got 30d by a 6yr old” I mean lets just say ‘debatable’, she might've got a round But u left the room n missed my rebuttal so calm it down And I didnt choke in that moment u thought I lost the crowd I just paused cause thought I spilled sm coffee on the couch (Bias) Aight if she outperformed me last time, I dare u to Look at our bars on paper ... her handwritings terrible (Look at it!) .. n Im not sure she lives what she raps I was busy and didn't take it serious since it isn't on smack (FAX) Plus half of her flips were probably premeditated I sent a fist bump emoji n told her keep elevating (Yea yea, good shit) Aaliyah u still family tho I got the screen captures in my camera roll Well it didn't get the audio but u can tell im winnin but anyways Uncle ill loves u rematch u when I’m back at home HOOK Told myself I do it for my neighborhood I’ma take the North Worldwide Told myself I do it for my city Left and now I’m feeling like a lie I told myself I do it for my family Some people had to cut ties Now I gotta do it for myself But that’s between you and I Aaliyah Russell (freestyle): You’re messing w the Queen of rappers So you might wanna stop being a coward Because you’re so woke Because you go slow And u don’t think of your punchline before you go home Ill: aight that was coo, but it sounded written Aaliyah: I didn’t write it down, I just thought of it -Silence- Ill: Is there anything you want to say to the people, if you’re on my album? Aaliyah: Yeah… thank you so much for listening to my uncle *laughter* Ill: ayyye… that might end the album

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released August 3, 2020

All songs produced & mixed by Chase Moore (Except where noted*)
Mastered by Jordan Rivers Recordings.

*Ghostedem co-prod by Esem.
*Sangria Sunsets prod by Esem.
*Gardettos in Velour Sweats co-prod by WIll Randolph V.

High School Dropout:
Additional vocals by Eddy I & Little Warrior.

Ghostedem:
Additional vocals by Lenka Shockley.

Marble Statues:
Additional vocals by Little Warrior.

Lak Sa:
Additional vocals by Aaliyah Russell.

Front cover art by HHEININGE.
Back cover / tracklist by KONR.

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