1. |
High School Dropout
03:45
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Aaliyah:
“Now… where do I start?”
HOOK:
Riding for the squad we aint trynna be jealous
Give me my flowers while i can still smell em
Tell em I prefer money trees over yall feelings
Picking dollar bills while they falling from the ceiling
Like naa naa na na naaa
Everything within reach I want my piece
Like naa naa na na naa
My bad u was waitin on me, okay-
VERSE:
Oh u Waiting on me? Tell em keep waitin,
Ain’t nobody in my league but I keep playin
Shit, Im just trynna ball like its SPRNG trainin
Block ya shot like the calls that I keep fading
Fuck a Bad vibe I aint taking that lightly
Its a sign, Every time u call it say SCAM likely
Its a sign, knew from jump, even my phone was like “ehh i cant really cosign bruh but u can answer if u want” whoa-
Never graduated but I kept it player-
I still walk across a stage to get the paper
At the staple center watching blazers vs the lakers
They mad they city only known for reggie, yall sm pacers
We some blazers, do it major,
-they said money dont grow on trees- but i seen 100 acres pick ya flavor
Grind the beans get the pot, brew the coffee sip it hot,
they been sleepin on me now that shit can stop (shit can stop), we ridin
HOOK:
Riding for the squad we aint trynna be jealous
Give me my flowers while i can still smell em
Tell em I prefer money trees over yall feelings
Picking dollar bills while they falling from the ceiling
Like naa naa na na naaa
Everything within reach I want my piece
Like naa naa na na naa
My bad u was waitin on me, okay-
Verse 2
Talkin Beef w lil bro, but if u ever need a thing then u can hit me on my phone
Talk abt the same shit cause its weighin on my soul
Naaanananaaaaw
Yea, I’m Ready for the glow up
Fuck a blow up, aint these rap lames
Poppin champagne, no-
Grew up Po’- yea, no wonder its my last name
I remember being clowned for that, but u wasnt around for that,
now I owned it yeah i like the sound of that
Yeah yeah yeah, i use to freestyle w Oryanna
She would throw me words, ooh u remember that
Remember back we lived w Grandma K,
uncle danny still the older brother that i never had yea remember that
I DO I DO
Still the coldest but u wouldnt notice
aint had a cut in months, Feelin focused lookin homeless
Grew up Listenin to Otis now I pen an opus
This Middle finger for the police, this one for the POTUS im
HOOK:
Riding for the squad we aint trynna be jealous
Give me my flowers while i can still smell em
Tell em I prefer money trees over yall feelings
Picking dollar bills while they falling from the ceiling
Like naa naa na na naaa
Everything within reach I want my piece
Like naa naa na na naa
My bad u was waitin on me, okay-
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2. |
Ghostedem
04:55
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HOOK:
If they ain’t loyal I don’t post with em
They was see through so I ghosted em
Names on bullets while I’m loading em
Told em dead it then I ghosted em
I had to come up missing,
to make my presence known (so i ghosted em)
I had to count my blessings,
they don’t add up I get ghost (then I ghosted em)
VERSE 1:
We getting money like 2006
Use to get 250 for an ounce of mids
Never let a bitch get in my head like John Malkovich
This my foretay, skip the foreplay like ya album skits
Full metal alchemist, nosediving mounting cliffs
Surgical with it, feel like Alonzo pulling out the bitch
Knock you out ya shit, blowing down ya house of bricks
Lounging in my fortress lit, order hits like the Saudi Prince
Had to break the mold, sheeps clothes, masquerading wolf
Calibrate the scale, take a half and make it whole
Channel HBO Game of Thrones- From dragon flames I rose,
walk out my palace draped in gold like a pharoah
My heart is black and made of coal
Ancient Rome, Gladiator dome,
Pop molly, get lockjaw- alligator roll
Gladly take your soul,
aint doing no favors, I do this for paper
Check the polygraph, I’m true to my nature, I do this-
Dont lie to you then try to justify to others
Judge threw the book at me, people judge me by the cover
Trynna self improve, selfish dude
Eat the pussy left a yelp review,
Life a chess game- I take the L and move
She pushing buttons like the ‘Rari will start
I’m getting ghost in the whipe like Mario Cart
Blood in the water with sharks, tearing bodies apart
Blew candles out and fought in the dark like Arya Stark, Names on a list
If they ain’t loyal I don’t post with em
They was see through so I ghosted em
Names on bullets while I’m loading em
Told em dead it then I ghosted em
I had to come up missing,
to make my presence known (so i ghosted em)
I had to count my blessings,
they don’t add up I get ghost (then I ghosted em)
*outro / beat switch*
I remember reduced lunches, skippin consecutive meals
Now we do luncheons w execs n still stress on the bill
Somewhere between on the verge, and on the edge in my feels
Thoughts in my head trynna tell my Pessimism to chill
If I go, mention me amongst Legends for real
North on my back, got a Lifelong Membership in the ville
Watched sm switch up depending on whos presence they feel
Nothing faker than trynna fit somebody’s definition of real, man
I Forget what the choice was
Smn about choosing to Feel or avoid love
Young Thousandaire rocking Billionaire Boys Club
Like oh i see u just Filling that void huh
I already know-
Those I Ghosted, I apologize
Just needed to cleanse my energy of them toxic vibes
now it’s new phone who’s this?
If only i knew then what I know now, was clueless but deep down i always knew this
New me- Old soul (sole), the Shoe fits
Everybodys an icon, What we do for a few clicks
Old soul the Shoe fits
But the truth is,
Sometimes I feel out of place, like I’m not really from here
Like I inherited these memories and this identity and I’m waiting to go back somewhere
Like I’ll wake up from this dream and think, “Oh yeah, I AM me, that dream was weird”
Just play along, staying calm,
ignore the voices in my head unless im making songs & that's the way we bond
Probably hard to be w me period,
Feelings only show once in a while to keep up appearances- damn...
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3. |
YODA
04:20
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Trynna get healthy tighten my circle
Aint no try only do
Gettin that bag, wakin up early
Aint no try only do
Stick to the plan no excuses
Aint no try- only do, aint no try- only do
Aint no try...
VERSE
...Be more honest
Fucked around put a wall up
Clear my conscience, been in private
I was hidin shits been piling up
In need of guidance, god im stuck, bottoms up
Put the bottle down but I still got sm shit that's bottled up, thats obvious
Everybody watching everybody
We aint all got the same problems
everybody feel alone cause everybody watching everybody else actin like they aint got em
I got problems too
I been out the loop
Actin calm & cool
I cant sleep, in case my dreams turn to nightmare too
Lost a few friends, ends,
Lot of my loved ones been abused, shared sm fucked up truths Changed my views,
This pains for u
lot of women that survived abuse, what they been thru, changed my views this ones for u… u
Thought wed be good by now
But ima still hold u down
Checkin that Bank account
Hoping that check don't bounce
Thought wed be good by now...
But ima still hold u down...
Thats right
HOOK
Love myself put in more effort, aint no try, only do
Try to read more try to talk less- aint no try, only do
Less complaining trynna be grateful - aint no try, only do
Aint no try only do aint no try only do
Aint no try...
Cant nobody see me when I’m motivated
Know u done fucked up now right
Cant nobody see me when I'm motivated
Ooooh know u done fucked up now right⬇
VERSE
I been, chasing my purpose and that shits eluding me, wait - maybe, im just confused
Maybe its chasing its been pursuin me maybe im losing it
Hidin frm scrutiny
Cover my wounds up w all of this jewlery
Ink on my skin just to cover my nudity
Wait- u feel out of place?
U speaking my language - it talk to me Fluently
It’s no rules to this shit
Just Be you & thats it
Aint Too cool to admit that-
I listen to old shit & cringe, Uncomfortable in my skin
Less abt things that i said
More abt places I’ve been
Less abt things that I did
More abt Tears that were shed
Less abt feeling so cold
More abt leavin my head
We were Made to feel, but that's not how we’re made to feel,
Being strong means giving yourself a space to heal, real
BRIDGE:
Thought wed be good by now
But ima still hold u down
Checkin that Bank account
Hoping that check don't bounce
Thought we'd be good by now...
But ima still hold u down
HOOK:
Drinkmore water check my ego - Aint no try, only do
Tryin to listen trust in my vision - Aint no try, only do
Guard ya magic dont let em snatch it - Aint no try, only do
Breakin habits thats automatic - Aint no try, only do
Forgive yourself nobodys perfect - Aint no try, only do
Forgive yourself nobodys perfect - Aint no try, only do
Forgive yourself nobodys perfect - Aint no try, only do
Aint no try, only do- Aint no try only do- Aint no try, only do
Cant nobody see me when im motivated
Know u done fucked up now right?
Cant nobody see me when im motivated
Ooooh know u done fucked up now right?
know u done fucked up now right?
... know u done fucked up now
Cant nobody see when im motivated-
Motivation...
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4. |
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B.Dot:
You niggas aint fucking w the squad though
Put that on my mom bro
When it come to writing rhymes every lines intertwined and designed w the God flow
Don’t get hit w a bomb though
I couldn’t miss a shot w my eyes closed
I’m good w the point like Rondo or get hit w a Two Piece- that’s a combo
Nigga, all my homies from the bottom, guns and drugs they really got em
See the opps and they spot em, best believe they probably shot em
Oh my god this is a problem
Oh my lord this is an issue
Hand my grandmama some tissue
She said “no weapon that is formed against you”
I said “Grandmama Jesus allowed the hood to have pistols” (true story)
So I’m switching up the flow ‘cause I can
To let u niggas know I’m the man
U don’t understand what the cocaine epidemic did to my fam
When u take the lid off a can
After you done heated it & beated it & mistreated it
& Best believe anything that u see in it to degrees will be damned
Damaged goods- so understand the hood next time u try to critique who I am
I’m tap dancing on the beat so anything that I think
Ima make sure it bleeds through the pen
Get a scope, come see through my lens
I’m yelling out Free all my friends
And making sure they never go again
I’ma speak the truth to the end
And fuck whoever that we gon offend
LSC-
HOOK-
Real make moves while the fake watch
No snapchat when they face swap
hit the plug up, make em weight watch
Gettin to the bag- that's a Cakewalk
Got a crib in the valley where it stays hot, trust me
Been a few months since a rain drop touched me
Real make moves while the fake watch
Gettin to the bag that's a, that’s a cake walk
Illmac:
Its Fuck 12 i got the case dropped
My homie PC Did 2 1/2 yrs state prop
Just for selling trees, now dispensaries on the same block, damn
Shit dont stop like the drug war, Every other block got a drug store,
aint a uproar,
the walkin dead, the whole city a slum, while they runnin they mouth i got a business to run
Now they Twiddlin thumbs, fixin their tongue to put a limit how big wed become like its a million to one
Told Em “Bitch, I’m the one”,
they said “Over My Dead body!” -consider it done,
Killa, been on the run n rep the city im from
this is capital punishment that isnt a pun
Heart frigid im numb,
only rubber I use is the grip on the gun cause it kick like a drum
Spendin Militant funds- civilians w guns, im the vigilant one
vigilante w a pistol being civil to none
Throw shade I extinguish the sun im as lit as they come
Got em like oooh weee, oooh shit,
Hoppin out 2 seats, new tints
They be like whos he? New drip
I be like New Me, who’s thiis?
What we talkin?
HOOK-
Real make moves while the fake watch
No snapchat when they face swap
hit the plug up, make em weight watch
Gettin to the bag- that's a Cakewalk
Got a crib in the valley where it stays hot, trust me
Been a few months since a rain drop touched me
Real make moves while the fake watch
Gettin to the bag that's a, that’s a cake walk
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5. |
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Hook:
Had to crawl before I walk then- ran right away from you
Had to fly before I crash land, n crawled right back to you
Got me saying ooooh, ay yea
Same shit different day
Got em saying oooh, ay yea
Guess it is what it is til it aint
Baby Franco:
I promise Everyday after tomorrow gon’ be better
Days go by like nights Im high enough to forget her
I Can’t run forever like Forest (Gump)
Feels like every song about you until the chorus
everyday the same amount of pain, hope u ain’t noticed
Is it supposed to leave? I ain’t know it
I see u in my dreams, where u going?
In everything I think when I wake up in the morning
My heart-
Illmac: It never skips a beat, It’s been resting on my sleeve
How they never see me coming like I never seen em leave
When the shows done and the lights dim
And the song ends and the love fades what we got then?
Was it all worth it?
Hook:
Had to crawl before I walk then- ran right away from you
Had to fly before I crash land, n crawled right back to you
Got me saying ooooh, ay yea
Same shit different day
Got em saying oooh, ay yea
Guess it is what it is til it aint
Illmac:
Yo you in this then I’m in it too
We can go the distance I know I been distant too
I know sometimes you think I’m dissing you and take my lyrics literal
But it writes itself, I’m just in the room
No lie, sometimes these words take on a life of their own and predict the future,
I wouldve listened If I would’ve known
Sometimes I consider your feelings in spite of my own
Or resent your feelings when i can’t decipher my own
I know, sometimes when I write
I get a glimpse of my inner light
I mostly end up feeling like
I been writing the same song a million times and still can’t get it right
But fuck this the life
Blame it on the lifestyle, I’m raising some eyebrows
And raising my price now, parents raised me right
Like it’s polite how I opened up doors for em, I’m nice now
It’s cool they never loved me, I never liked to be tied down
In deep, I might drown
Picture the GOAT counting Sheep before I lie down
Sleep on me it’s lights out
When the shows done and the lights dim and the song ends
And the love fades, what we got then, huh?
Hook:
Had to crawl before I walk then- ran right away from you
Had to fly before I crash land, n crawled right back to you
Got me saying ooooh, ay yea
Same shit different day
Got em saying oooh, ay yea
Guess it is what it is til it aint
oooh, ay yea
oooh, ay yea
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6. |
Sangria Sunsets
02:46
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Sample / quote:
“This is like my little window to the world, and every minute’s a different show… The idea is to remain in a constant state of departure, while always arriving. Saves on introductions and goodbyes. The ride does not require an explanation, just occupants… that’s where you guys come in…”
VERSE:
This LA Spring feel like Portland summers
The heavens that we orbit under look like watercolors
So excuse me while I paint the sky
Waste time spendin magic hours watching paint dry
Drinkin in these blue moons and Sangria sunsets
Drip like What it takes to be a Champion; blood, sweat
And tears my peers shed when they asked me whos up next-
Hand me an ambien this shit had me in unrest
Caused my family enough stress, loved ones pay the price
Kidnap Jeff Bezos make the ransom a couple grains of rice
Tally the masses- counting sheep before I say goodnight,
Insomniac lucid dreaming watching Waking Life...
...Not many dreamers left, so busy sleep walking thru life or wake walking thru dreams
Aint recognize the man in the mirror, I Think we’ve met,
Or thats nostalgia the beat projects
Remember Young me watching family matters on CBS
Used to think I was more Stephan than Steven-esque
I Still chase Laura around- just imagine that she's success
N Share Fleeting moments of happiness sandwiched between regrets
Why everything gotta be so deep?
Why I cant just get on here n talk shit?
Why I always forget details? Why im so focused on the Whole theme?
Why I always Fall in love? Why can't it be no strings?
Excuse my selfishness, faith’s belief without evidence
And actions the line between knowledge and intelligence
Like when I read 48 laws of power and aspired to be everything I rebel against,
Peep the relevance...
Most People are People-people, I only talk ideas
But most are followers, watch who u call ur leaders
Prolly die by my Entourage of Dorados like Poncho Villa on a march of freedom
Singing “Dont cry for me Argentina”
Like Martin’s speech, This a call to dreamers
Before I Recant n call it naive, before my blood spilled in the street like Aquafina
Put a lot of myself in my art like Frida,
We all wake up and play our part in this cosmic theater
That or we Mindlessly driftin...
She only smokes cigs when the anxiety’s cripplin
We both misfits in Societys vision
Some dying to fit in, other TRY to be different
Cant tell if I'm neither or both...
....Cant tell if im neither or both
They said U reap what u sow, i just plant seeds and see it as growth... spring
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7. |
Dim my Light
03:23
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I let my thoughts roam,
they been gone so long, that's why I aint dropped, they just got home
Its been 4yrs, im locked into my zone
Took it on the jawbone and got stronger now i flaunt every flaw shown
Nothing handed to me I don’t plan to lose
Lifes a biiitch (beach)- I got sandy shoes
Going ham til I pull a hammy
U gotta hand it to me, middle finger and a hand on my family jewels
Cant handle my attitude
I swam in a half a gallon of Goose off a handle loose
Know what them Xannys do call em Xanadu’s
I’m w the SMOKE- Im packin a pack of Kools
10 milligram addies had me Spazzin back when I sang the blues
Act a fool w my clique of Animals
Hoppin outta pocket like sm Kangaroos
No lackin- U know where I’m at- check the latitude
Point the trigger finger at me there’s at least 3 pointing back at you
Anywho-
The vegan Nani sweet as apple juice n passion fruit
jump in the box n then I crash like bandicoot
She a savage like Fenti, La Femme Nikita, hold the heater
Dont fuck w Mona Lisa but she my Rosalia
Bridge:
I cant lie to myself, saying I aint the one, aint the one
No I, I cant lie to myself, No, let me shine…
Hook:
Leave me alone to live my life
It’s in my soul won’t dim my light
For you
(I don’t live my life for you- so I won’t dim my light for you)
And I don’t, live my life, for you
(Live my life for you, so I won’t dim my light for you)
VERSE 2:
Gotta hustle through the pain, hit the kill switch
Lot of trouble on my brain gotta deal with
Pulling luggage off a plane, off a guilt trip
Couple hundred to my name now i feel rich (real shit)
We only here a brief moment in time
Which reminds me- keep going n grind
Keep control of my vibe n each moment is mine
Might've blew a shot or two- I’mm reloaded, its fine
I aint trippin off that, naw
I been Livin off rap but i was gettin off packs, so I aint finna fall back
We don’t Consider yall feelings, we consider yall wack
If I put a Hole-in-one of y’all itd get a golf clap
Homie told me move to LA, don’t let that shit change you
but watching old friends stay the same’s a bit painful
Shows I’m growing right?
humble like apologizing after the fight even though u know u right -
lips red- exhaled them lips read ”sex sells”
Guess I’m in ‘Good company’ I invest well
I do this Comfortably now n find it funny how all those who could never fuck w me, fuck w me now
That hates a seed they stuck in the ground, they tended to it enough it grew into Love for me now /
But who’s got love me? Whos frontin? who fucks w me- how?
Who's runnin? Who’s tied to ankles- tugging me down? cause
Bridge:
I cant lie to myself, saying I aint the one, aint the one
No I, I cant lie to myself, No, let me shine…
Hook:
Leave me alone to live my life
It’s in my soul won’t dim my light
For you
(I don’t live my life for you- so I won’t dim my light for you)
And I don’t, live my life, for you
(Live my life for you, so I won’t dim my light for you)
… outro:
Aaliyah Russell: “I’m in my own personal bubble”
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8. |
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(Illmac)
I just want em to feel it,
yeah-
It’s good to be alive right now
Shit, I could’ve died by now
Last few months felt weak
Watched months pass like weeks
Watched weeks pass like days
Watched days pass like blinks
Lost fam rest in piece
No deadweight, no weak links
HOOK:
You don’t really need me
Do it all by yourself
You don’t need me, you good
But I still wish you well
You don’t really need me
Do it all by yourself
You don’t need me, you good
But I still wish you well
Guess we falling out… (oooh oooh oooooh oooh)
I guess we falling out... (oooh oooh oooooh oooh)
I know, I wish you well (I do, I do)
I know, I wish you well (I do, I do) (oooh oooh oooooh oooh)
VERSE 1 (Illmac):
Don't catch me if im falling
No half ass love when I'm all in
Never switched up im evolvin, yea
Whats the Problem? yea
I cant fuck w em if I dont know em
Naw, I only trust em far as I can throw em
Love to be alone I see it as an omen
Let em go, don't look at people like I own em
And that goes for homies n that goes for hoes and
I just killed the pussy and gave no Condolence
I let her throw it back til she get scoliosis
And even Virgin Mary would get Holy ghosted
Keep em at a distance when they hold me closest
She gave the silent treatment- No one noticed
Married to the game, no annulments
Yea, no emotions, just control my focus cause
You don’t really need me
Do it all by yourself
You don’t need me, you good
But I still wish you well
You don’t really need me
Do it all by yourself
You don’t need me, you good
But I still wish you well
Guess we falling out… (oooh oooh oooooh oooh)
I guess we falling out... (oooh oooh oooooh oooh)
I know, I wish you well (I do, I do)
I know, I wish you well (I do, I do) (oooh oooh oooooh oooh)
VERSE 2 (Adam Flowers):
I know I wish you well, I don’t do distance, well
I just don’t know if I’m finna bail
I just got throwed and poured both in the ginger ale
I remember you smoking with coke in your pinky nail
I don’t know if you don’t notice I know that you been to jail, maybe you just don’t do business well
I know your pretty frail, posted at chippendales
I know you say you don’t know me but I see the soul of an infidel
I know you know that I did you well
You know I wish you well, you know I wish you
You don’t really need me
Do it all by yourself
You don’t need me, you good
But I still wish you well
You don’t really need me
Do it all by yourself
You don’t need me, you good
But I still wish you well
Guess we falling out… (oooh oooh oooooh oooh)
I guess we falling out... (oooh oooh oooooh oooh)
I know, I wish you well (I do, I do)
I know, I wish you well (I do, I do) (oooh oooh oooooh oooh)
-Beat slows down / chopped and screwed-
It’s good to be alive right now
Shit, I could’ve died by now
Last few months felt weak
Watched months pass like weeks
Watched weeks pass like days
Watched days pass like blinks
Lost fam rest in piece
No deadweight, no weak links
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VERSE 1:
Young man brushed the dirt off his shoulders,
The world in front of em, Use to be down bad- To New beginnings,
Who’s split personalities at tug of war til they wore each other out
And nothing ever gets truly finished
Ooh thats too familiar, soon you’ll get the picture, just trynna choose a filter
Just trynna loosen them screws, we know they wound tight
Read the headline - check- make a judgement - check- click the sound bite,
That sounds about right
most days he stay at home in the house like he's afraid of the outside,
Like hes safe on that lil island, building a life boat
But if he planned on leaving he’d tie a rope to them high hopes
N fly away... by the way,
Trynna find his hiding place, you gotta Cross his mind- whos got the right of way?
-like watercolors across my window all i see is motion blur
3
Young woman brushed the dirt off her shoulders, the world in front of her
Scarred from all the trauma she had withstood
Stronger than she realizes she is,
she's powerful but stares in a funhouse mirror and sees damaged goods
Survivor of sexual trauma, tries not to let it define her but the pressure reminds her
That it’s a mans world.....
“Its what she wore- deep down she really liked the attention”
Don’t click the comments, Its a mad world
Gotta take it in small doses, Bob wiley- keep babysteppin, it's all motion
Some days she feel like Dogwoods in the spring, some days- Fall Roses
Its all growth and I just soak it in like osmosis...
Closed her eyes n woke up yrs later... how could we not notice-
Like Watercolors across my windows all i see is motion blur
Young father brushed the dirt off shoulders the world in front of em
currently down bad- To new beginnings
He sleeps in a tent down the street from the house that he grew up in
Choosing this over mom’s rules that’s too restricting
Ironic independence seemed to bring a new dependence
On a substance, tho it's a comfort zone, not a new position
He’s use to it, his work booted em, when his work boots were the first shoes that fits em
Now he's Disillusioned with it
A different person when he was workin
Held his head higher, looked u in the eye, felt he had a purpose
He lets his anger out... vents his pain on paper and leaves it layin round
Things he'd never say out loud
I think he secretly hopes that they get found
Like if they do, maybe he will, til then he Anchors down
Dont hold ya breath, it’s escape or drown
Trynna find balance on Shaky ground
Feels like he's breakin, maybe he needs a break from this vacant town
It's got a stranglehold on em, like the ppl he chooses to hang around
But hes loyal and they always stay around
Doing the same things, maybe that's why nobody makes it out
I know his story isn't done being written
I’m just flippin thru pages, tears blurry my vision like
Like Watercolors across my windows all i see is motion blur
Its easy to autpilot through life blinded by the motion blur.
We naturally fill in the blanks, categorize & think we know others' story based off the headlines... It's easy to judge a puzzle by the piece or two in front of us,
when all we know is fragments...Cause all we show is fragments.
I wouldve done this, I'd never do that... if I were in THAT position...
It’s harder to empathize & not look at others as flawed versions of ourselves.
When confronted with loved ones hidden truths, we’re surprised or hurt we weren’t given an all access pass to them…
When we may not have created a safe space for them to be able to be that vulnerable in the first place...
LITTLE WARRIOR:
First impressions can be quite different
I don’t always get it right
I’m judging others with specs
But I’ve got a plank in my own eye
Painted by the same hand
Trying to get by on this earth
Like water colords across my windows
All I see is motion blur
All we know is fragments… ‘cause all we show is fragments
Like water colors across my windows, all I see it motion blur
Guess the only moral of the story, is try not to judge cause there’s more to every story
*Outro / Beat switch*
I been getting high
And I can’t feel my lows
Head up in the sky
That’s where I’ma go
I’ma paint my life in gold
Dip my flesh and bones
Need to cleanse my soul
Maybe I will… (then again) maybe I won’t (then again)
Maybe I will… maybe I won’t
This aint what you wanted, this is what is wrote
God’s word coming from the GOAT
Jim Jones running with the Kult
Spike the punch, cut the coke
Fuck the world, tip the globe on it’s axis
Feel the stroke
Yeah bitch, feel the stroke
Turn em into fiends, got the fix, now I’ll never be broke
Let’s go
They say I’m the one
That’s not enough for me
I need everything, Pay me like you owe me something
Pay me like you owe me something
Pay me like you owe me something
Need to paint my life in gold
Dip my flesh and bones
Need to cleanse my soul
Maybe I will… maybe I won’t
Something something, naw
Yada yada yah, need to finish this song
Maybe I will… maybe I won’t-
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10. |
Be Better
04:19
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Tired of watching my heroes fall…
Don’t be like me… Be Better
I’m sick of watching all my heroes fall
Mirror on the wall saying - Do Better
I got a message from a fan he told me he going through it
Lost his love and a loved one and said my music pulled em through it
Told me lines from songs he loved, what they meant to him, he still in school,
raps n wanna be like me... Whatever You do...
-DON’T BE LIKE ME-
Which is to say dont put me on pedestal
im watching heroes falling that I thought Id never Measure to
Another fan told me that he finally got his GED
I never did- we switched roles in turn he inspired me to
-DO BETTER-
Fashion Bummy, Had me Actin funny-
half the countries in my passport stamped for rappin for fans that love me, but I’m
Still chasing that high I felt as a teen buying a new washer & dryer for my Dads’ house w battle money
Might not mean much to you, but if u only knew
Them clean clothes felt like a mansion that had the ocean view
If only one outfit was clean, I might not go to school,
Wear it monday, skip til friday, wear it n hope no one knew
Whoo somethings are too real,
I’m in my bed like Dru Hill thinkin u dont speak how u feel then who will?
...Just trynna be better everyday
So Its not self deprecating when i say
Don’t be like me… Be Better
I’m sick of watching all my heroes fall
Mirror on the wall saying - Do Better
Don’t be like me… You can be better
I’m sick of watching all my heroes fall
Mirror on the wall saying - “Do Better”
I can’t be your hero, I can’t even save myself
I can’t be your hero, I can’t even save myself
I use to idolize rappers like super heroes, since day one
I would put my mask on and play them
Pac was like Clark Kent, Biggie was Bruce Wayne
We watched beef amongst A-1’s
The death of Super Man- I was way young
But where I came from
Being broke was a super power… I put my cape on
Watching my heroes fall…
Tired of watching my heroes fall
Now all I see’s their power weakening and chinks in their armor
Either that or I’m even stronger
Shit, I guess I finally became one
I guess it’s on me to save em
My bad that’s the villain Ego speaking, I can’t escape em
As Gotham falls, design a wall just to hide my flaws
Suit up like Kung Fu Kenny, T’Challa, Wakanda calls
Double R - X the professor to guide em all
Falling off, now he back on that kryptonite, It’s not his fault
Cause all that pressure busts pipes, addicted by default
Marshall locked in Arkham Asylum, outside is Martial Law
Donald like Dr. Claw or Thanos w the gauntlet on
Kanye dropped the ball cosigning a monster at comic con
Watchin my heroes fall… tired of watching my heroes fall
Before the rise and fall…
Don’t idolize me, not at all, I ain’t shit, signing off
P.S. …
Don’t be like me… Be Better
I’m sick of watching all my heroes fall
Mirror on the wall saying - Do Better
Don’t be like me… You can be better
I’m sick of watching all my heroes fall
Mirror on the wall saying - “Do Better”
Wish I could put Big L, in the Lazarus pit
Jakka’s handstyle in my blackbook brings me back to that trip
Cried when Bender died, Alexander Buchanan is missed
Wish I could turn this tat on my skin back into him
Tired of watching all my heroes fall….
Watching all my heroes fall…
Rest in peace to the fallen heroes
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Eatin gardettos in velour sweats,
more money, more jealous, more stressed
Never thought about having more, less
More less,
In the Background high as Falsetto in a quartet
Ugh,
Stop drinking but im still turnt
Stop smoking cause of asthma
but i still blow a smoke screen, lowkey but i been worse
Lost sm demons but they still lurk
when the motivation ends thats the real work
A slave to my habits, i know how the Field Work,
I put in work in my field,
And then My purpose revealed,
Yeah they Aimed for my name but all the Dirt hit my shield,
I watched it Ricochet,
Waging war til I’m blackballed, I’m Blackhawk
Me n my queen riding like Crazy Horse and Black Shawl
U either rebelling or assisting the system, ghostdancing long as Peltiers sitting in Prison
Lineage split w victims of history - the privileged
The Pillers - the pillaged
immigrants - indigenous im mixin traditions
Sitting Bull’s spirit risen to Visit my visions
Big Difference between gettin rich and enrichment
Trynna find Upwards on My compass
Went to war they sounded live trumpets upon my return triumphant
In touch w my roots,
Tug at this noose, like it's Comfortable loose
Pennin Venom From a Recluse
Threw up V for Victory, chuckin a duece
N pulled the Colt Peacemaker tucked in my boots
Cock the hammer back w my thumb n It shoots
Warned em once, he refused
this chip on my shoulder blade weighs too much on my glutes...
Ignore the bolts Poking from my neck,
Paint em gold n stay focused on a check
Writing all these goals down
Copin w the stress n these ghosts up in my head
Roamin free, let em be, they not posin any threat
Got Addicted to the praise, feel they owe me the respect,
Addicted to the love, like the moment that we met
Got addicted to attention then they showed me the connect
Watchin celebs overdosin had a sobering effect on me
Remember back when we laughed at rules
N Ran around like Bebe’s kids acting bad at school
Way Before we packed that tool,
Now Homies Pouring liquor out trynna see the Glass half full
WE just Keep em entertained so the world cant revolt
I shot the sheriff w a pearl handled Colt
Earl Manigult- THE GOAT, aint a feelin that the verse cant evoke,
Just got my word and my Kult
This little thing of ours,
Boom bada bing,
Blue collar dreams
Me n my brothers bout our chicken like Gustavo fring
Coupe- olive green
Sports are the new coliseum
Im Chewin licorice root Thumbin thru the I ching,
Opportunity knock n my Call of duty might ring
A Wandering samurai like the Book of 5 rings
“Think deeply of the world and lightly of yourself”
Time is money got me out here tightening my belt
what I write is what I felt
Take the Rifle from the shelf
Me n God got a pact, she give me Life- I give em hell i took a blood oath
Blood soaked, pops did a seance in the 80s n seen the devil up close, now u sitting front row
Liquor n drugs, liquor n drugs
Watchin artists droppin like flies is killin my buzz
I aint innocent, not in a position to judge
Did everything frm Molly Ringwald to hilary duff
The way we glorify shit that’s killin us but
Boast when we survive it shows shows the resilience in us ]
Well...excuse us for not giving a fuck, the industry sucks
Labels treating rappers like Dinner for Schmucks
An Idiocracy, mediocrity,
keep gamblin til they punch my ticket like i hit the lottery
Anybody can get it, I aint w inequality
But I been evolvin trynna show a different side of me
That's why I Treat my catalog like them pigs robbin me
Destroy the evidence liike they did my Missing property
I grew up listening to rap music
My mom loved rock n roll - we both listening to black music
Won’t Pretend that it aint
Showing respect as a Guest in it, wont threaten my place
No Chuck Berry- no Elvis legacy paved
A Hound dog like Big Mama Thornton may she rests in her grave
You can love chinese food and even have the recipe great
still Chinese food end of the day, im sayin
I grew up listening to black music
The dude w a white russian like Rasputin n Vlad putin
Duke Nukem- Im back shootin, the Hands movin like Zab Judah
Half goat- like Krampus & half human
Just trynna live my truth like the trans movement
n stand by my fam like Dwayne wade n Gab Union
Prolly catch a lot of hate, dressed fresh to death, made funeral plans n im Fashionably late
Every 20 yrs fashion comes back around so
Assume im living in the future if my outfit’s out of date
This The planet of the apes
throwin monkey wrenches, blow em like candles in the wind, cant hold a candle to the great
Id catch a case for Chase like I Plan to rob a bank
Gotta Watch my back they always sabotage the greats
Who to trust...
Serpents in the grass could not escape, I made snake skin boots, lie in camouflage n wait
Wanna Battle? lock the date
A day And a dollar late
Swear they Had a lot to say, til its brandished off waist
I'm just Weighin options out...
like back when them packs had a lot of shake - that’s a catatonic state
Allergic to being broke need my Pockets to swell
Ride til i say hello from the Otherside like Adele
Cold blooded- tears like ice when it melt,
A lot of shit on my mind as u can probably tell
They victim blame, see a suicide then tweet about mental health
Like heres a # to a hotline if it helps
Well Harvey Weinstein’s rapist, Cosby as well
We can debate who's worse when they both rottin in Hell
A lot of yall know somebody that won't confide in u cause you’d shame em for surviving things u couldnt conquer yourselves
Tired of biting my tongue, its time we begun,
12yrs old a grown man threatened my Life w a gun,
flashback to seein pops sayin hes not gonna run,
Can't outrun a bullet - a mantra passed father to son
Got Addicted to the praise, feel they owe me the respect,
Addicted to the love, like the moment that we met
Got addicted to attention then they showed me the connect
Watchin celebs overdosin like damn...
How id feel about myself if i wasnt about myself
I’d climb up out myself n never doubt myself
Never doubt yourself or the power of belief
A seed that turned into a root that sprouted to a tree
I be a weed amongst the flowers, a flower surrounded by weeds
My power surrounded by peace
My smith n wesson piece full of gun powder underneath me for the 6 or 7 hours i sleep
A thousand cowards deceased
By a thousand deaths a piece...
Alpha wolf howlin at the moon, stomach growlin for relief
A pound of flesh on my scale, balanced like the beam
The beam on the 40 calibre, Excalibur- im king
SPRNG
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12. |
Lak Sa
04:11
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Watching hours go slow
Thinking “How'd I grow old”?
With No rain on my roof then my flowers won't grow
Been in hibernation, tired of waitin
I lie awake and think abt time I’m wasting
Am i complacent?
Shit,
I should’ve knew winter was coming- Im from the North...
Thats the quiet before the storm, thats coming forth
I watch the world burning from my porch
I wouldve try to put it out if i wasnt bored
I throw a Dixie cup of water at it then it's back to drugs n sports
Drunken snorts, like addiction is a love of sorts
I’m more convinced than Uninformed
Cut the cord- Ignore the cliff that we Running towards
I need money or someone who’ll love me for who i am
oh i got that, n need something more
No its not that
I mean i just wanna put my city and my family on
Shit when i started I aint know id last this long
HOOK
Told myself I do it for my neighborhood
I’ma take the North Worldwide
Told myself I do it for my city
Left and now I’m feeling like a lie
I told myself I do it for my family
Some people had to cut ties
Now I gotta do it for myself
But that’s between you and I
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What to do, watch a movie or play call of duty
They got us on lockdown now, Im scared i caught the cooties
A homebody already, the world just caught up to me
Take a trip to portland to order the Lak Sa at Nudi
Stop at Yokos if I wanted sushi
Talkin Sashimi, nigiri, no no, no rolls- I’m not a newbie
Nobody put me on, when i was young
Underdog, yeah thats where im from
Im from the Johns
My comfort zone is on my own yeah that made me strong
My pops n mom couldnt get along (DIVORCE)
No love was lost, it all falls when the summers gone,
Winter comes, then it thaws guess i was wrong when
HOOK
Told myself I do it for my neighborhood
I’ma take the North Worldwide
Told myself I do it for my city
Left and now I’m feeling like a lie
I told myself I do it for my family
Some people had to cut ties
Now I gotta do it for myself
But that’s between you and I
3
I facetimed my niece n we battled, I kilt her tho
My girl like “mm u got 30d by a 6yr old”
I mean lets just say ‘debatable’, she might've got a round
But u left the room n missed my rebuttal so calm it down
And I didnt choke in that moment u thought I lost the crowd
I just paused cause thought I spilled sm coffee on the couch (Bias)
Aight if she outperformed me last time, I dare u to
Look at our bars on paper ... her handwritings terrible (Look at it!)
.. n Im not sure she lives what she raps
I was busy and didn't take it serious since it isn't on smack (FAX)
Plus half of her flips were probably premeditated
I sent a fist bump emoji n told her keep elevating (Yea yea, good shit)
Aaliyah u still family tho
I got the screen captures in my camera roll
Well it didn't get the audio but u can tell im winnin but anyways Uncle ill loves u rematch u when I’m back at home
HOOK
Told myself I do it for my neighborhood
I’ma take the North Worldwide
Told myself I do it for my city
Left and now I’m feeling like a lie
I told myself I do it for my family
Some people had to cut ties
Now I gotta do it for myself
But that’s between you and I
Aaliyah Russell (freestyle):
You’re messing w the Queen of rappers
So you might wanna stop being a coward
Because you’re so woke
Because you go slow
And u don’t think of your punchline before you go home
Ill: aight that was coo, but it sounded written
Aaliyah: I didn’t write it down, I just thought of it
-Silence-
Ill: Is there anything you want to say to the people, if you’re on my album?
Aaliyah: Yeah… thank you so much for listening to my uncle
*laughter*
Ill: ayyye… that might end the album
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